Oh gosh, it's been AGES. I've been traveling (to Pittsburgh mostly), I've had family in town, and I've been sick. It's been a whole lot! It's been oppressively sunny, the kind where every day is so stunningly beautiful that they all seem to run into each other. In other words, I can't imagine living in California. It's also been as dry as a bone, no humidity at all. My outdoor plants hate it, and I'm struggling to keep any sort of moisture in them, and also in me. I feel like a mummy.

I feel like I'm going through a bit of an existential crisis - I've been working hard but it feels like too many projects are in that in-between stage, and it's making me doubt myself a lot. I'm trying to ignore it and just focus on the day-to-day but it's hard. I don't do well with long-term projects, I'm realizing. I get too impatient. It's something I'm trying to work on though, in all aspects of my life. My fatal flaw: impatience.

Being sick for a long time didn't help. Finally I sucked it up and got a prescription for antibiotics and they're helping a lot. Viral illnesses have been in the public consciousness for so long I forgot that things can actually be bacterial. It's so nice to finally have energy and not be coughing my lungs out (as much).

I've also been working on trying to have good habits - to do some weight lifting, getting cardio, eating right, drinking less. Staying off youtube and social media, too (not that I'm even on it that much). Instead, I've been actually watching movies and playing video games - I'm going through all the Wes Anderson movies right now, and I started watching The Substance but had to turn it off just to take a break. When I say intense that's an understatement! I had weird nightmares last night about it, and I woke up in a gross sweat several times during the night.

I also started Echoes of Wisdom, the new Zelda game. I have a lot of thoughts on it - but to sum it up in a sentence, the game is very very good but something is missing for me, something rough and unpolished and creatively driven. I want it to have SOME kind of edge to it, some kind of ugliness, some strangeness, some PROOF that someone's fingerprints were on it, instead of overly polished like a too-round, too-artificial stone. Maybe this is too picky in today's era of creation-by-committee, but I would always rather watch or play something unique and individual, even if it's more flawed. I am having a lot of fun with it, don't get me wrong! This is more of a criticism on where we're at with megacorporations and creative work than this specific game.

Okay, time to go. Thanks for the new follows by the way - I do check in on each and everyone's websites, especially your blogs!